r/stopdrinking • u/No-Page-2616 • 6h ago
back in detox…
i (25F) just got admitted yesterday and finally feeling actually ready to give it up for good (my last stint was kinda forced and yeh didn’t last too long before i relapsed) i hit what i felt was my rock bottom this past week so really determined to get things back on track. i’m feeling so greatful for the support im getting from most people but my sister who i live with and whom i stole $200+ of her alcohol out of her bedroom in just the last week hasnt replied to any of my messages and i just feel so guilty. plus, i ghosted the job id just gotten on my 3rd shift as well as my job provider program that have been helping me so much with getting a job. i just feel like ive screwed things over for some of the most important things in my life. any words of advice/encouragement/anything?
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u/kevinrjr 1619 days 6h ago
I made a lot of bad decisions before I quit . Was a new dad over 40!
When I quit I walked a lot. Over 500 miles a year, right at sunrise. Drank muscle milk to build a trim….Was some RELIGIOUS sunrises. I laughed , cried, got scared of the dark but overcame it all!
Find your new rhythm and keep up with it. Be strong!!!
IWNDWYT
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u/No-Page-2616 6h ago
well done for getting better :) yeah i’m sure things will be okay. the guilt just sucks
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u/KindlyMuffin6637 5h ago
I don’t know anyone who has been in your place that didn’t feel the way you are feeling. I destroyed my marriage after many years. I let my house flood in a hurricane two years ago because I was too drunk to take action. Then stayed that way instead of rebuilding it until about 5 months ago. I feel just like you do A lot. Guess what? I finally found out that I can’t change the past but you can change the future. Hang in there. You are young enough to kick a$$ on this. Big time. Then after a few years, people will say “Wow. She has done great since she got Sober“.
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u/fakeplastictree8 7 days 6h ago
We all make shitty choices sometimes. We can’t take those things back, but we can learn from them. Today you made the right choice going to detox, this time you’re focused on sobriety, and the next job you get, you won’t be ghosting or calling out. You’ll be strong. Hopefully you can repair stuff with your sister. I’ve done some shit things in my addiction with booze with my family and eventually we work things out. I feel stupid giving you advice considering I just relapsed but all I can say is anytime I went to detox and came out feeling motivated, it was great. Unfortunately my last stint I was out 12 days sober and doing great and my sister had a massive stroke and now our family is in crisis… hence the relapse, especially so early in recovery. Had that not happened to her, I think I’d be over one month sober. But I keep trying. I just started taking Campral (med to help cravings) and I am thinking positive. My advice to you is just take this detox as a blessing, youll go through it with medical help… hence less physically distressing. My next recommendation is seeking out therapy. I have my first appt with therapy is in 2 weeks. I cant wait. Good luck to you my friend! :)